Forgive me...

Ya Allah.. berikan aku kekuatan utk menghadapi masalah ini...
I have done a lot of things that are against ur teachings but u are still in my heart, in my mind, in my soul.
Forgive me for all my sins that ive done and that im abt to do..

and to you...
forgive me...
frens are much impt...

let there be light in the things in abt to do now

wahahah..

im back pple... crazier than ever

oh ya
i finally went for an x ray for my ankle... thursday getting back result
hopefully no operation needed...
eh wait last time need operation but i nvr go.. haha
scared la!!!
my leg is the most impt part of me
recovering legs=no football for a long time= mendak giler
giler an adjective that i heard alot today... went to orchard just now for IDEAS customer service shit thing
non of the shops actualli came to help us buy our things.( step beli jer padehal window shopping jer)
haha and MST is coming.... need to work extra hard
and then its the holidays!!! woohooo...
going golfing at malaysia!!!
im gonna really enjoy this holiday!!!

im hurt again....

ever since sec 3 uve been bothering me... u hurt me wen im walking, running, training...
wen u attack me i would fall like an idiot...it hurts u know...
fuck u ankle...u cos me so much pain... u made me look like fool just now...
in front of my frens...

i really wanna go x ray my ankle and get it heal asap...

im so tired rite now... i wanna sleep but it would waste one day of my life...
hahha... already wasting everyday with school
i need to earn extra income... more and more...
i feel like caddying again... paiseh arh...
da lamer menghilang beh tibe2 dtg alek
i used to be rich wen i was werking thr
haha aite. thats all...

i wanna move on but i think its not the right time yet... im afraid i aint gonna be that dream guy....
i wish i have all the time in the world... den i can show u my love truely

Thanks

I would like to apologize for everything i said and done... i didnt mean to hurt anyone it was juz for fun...
sometimes i do stuff before i think... just like i forget to say bismillah before i drink
choose to forgive me or not... u came to my help when i needed support
everyone has their own flaws...
u talk more i show more...
just wen im not in the mood an act like a wild boar...
guess wat i think of this in 5 minutes... yeah baby its a single digit
but pls jgn binget!!!

haha enuf already... u talk a lot

u so pissed off......... wen i wanted to help u just jerk me off...
well guess what im ur uncle... i aint gonna see u hurt like a sprain ankle...
take advices from a hypocrite... whats all this shit?

ouh and to u MR I CANT STOP TALKING... u dare ditch me this sunday imma make u pay...
my mouth will stay silent... but my limbs are gonna take action...

ouh im just writing some rhyme... OMG just look at the tyme...
im sober... all shit flushed out off my blood stream...
im hyper... 4 times i have been to the gym

so now imma sleep, like a pig...
else tmr ill be too tired to dig...
for ur memorial...
of everything u said that werent real...

goodbye... u gonno die...

Hah

Totally a different person when im texting u. Hopefully i'd be that person...

School= stress

Getting irritated almost always.
It was fun at first then started talking and talking an talking and talking...
Its like u have done everything in this world...
U claim people aint that good when u arent that good urself...
U talk as if u are soo soo big...
So far ive nvr seen u prove whatever u say...
Seems like ure... lying..
Every I say is true u know...
Ive got the scars and witness to prove it..
So moral of the story... get to know someone... just like that...
once u start to get closer... u know the real shit stuff about the person...

HAHA WTH IS WRONG???
Trust me homey im not playing.... out the dancefloor... off the chain.. i say
GET UP!
Im not playing i say im off the chain...

Who run it?!
haha

I wont admit it

Headache, flu, cough, im sick... just wont admit it... even wen i yawn my jaw hurts haha

Im officially 52KG now... i want to gain 8KG more pls...

60kg 165cm

okla tuh...

im always hungry now...

kk... i need to learn to control the vulgarities and stop smoking den ill be a sweet2 guy... awww

haha someone said that eh... advice advice... im getting advice from a lot of my frens now...

looking at my life on a different point of view...

its quite different than wat i thought....

happy now... this headache is killing me seh...

k i want to eat... jemput makan suma!!!

PAIN!!!

im in pain right now. the worst pain ever ... stung by either a bee or hornet...
it hurts and it swells and its itchy... and it hurts once again... pain!!!
can hardly move my left hand pinky...

arhh!!!! fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

wats in my mind now...

hhah.. 2 post in one day.. RARE especially frm me

been listening to alot of Eminem songs..
This song especially hits me.. not the whole song just some part of the line

I've been too long on my own
everybody has their private world
where they can be all alone

im just so fucking depressed
i just cant seem to get out of this slump
if onli i could just get over this hump
but i need something to pull me out this dump

i think im starting to lose my sense of humour
everythings so stress and gloomer
i almost feel like im gonna check
the temperature of the room

in my shoes
just to see
wat its like to be me
i be u, u be me
just to see wat i'd be like

...

Stop acting like the whole is perfect.. its not... nothing is perfect... even he make mistakes... i think

stop... please... ure sad... wat abt me?
u have parents who still listen to you...
i hv parents who just give me some money then its up to myself...
i dont hv someone to look on... no role models...
at least i still hv parents...
even my brothers teach me the wrong stuffs.
do i need to know the best place to club...
do i need to know wats the best alcoholic drink thr is...
do i even need a brother who just give some advices den do noting...
spending more time with his fiancee and frens than brothers...
like wtf....
my heads gonna explode soon...
and thats the reason why im always not in class..
thats the reason why im always asleep late..
thinking of u... thinking of my family...
i wanna be a role model for my younger siblings...
i wanna be respected for something...
but i still dont have that driving force...
stop thinking that this world is made up of rainbows and angels...
everyone has a devil in their body
its either that person can tame it or not...
mine has gone uncontrollably crazy...
thrs nothing stopping it...
even now im thinking...
wats my future gonna be like...
whether its gonna be bright...
whether im gonna be happy spending time with the ones i love
or im gonna just die with a feeling of remorse
how abt being me for one day... lets just see
can u last?
luckily im good at talking crap cos thats wat made me frens...
hahs...
if u dont wanna listen.. den im am the one whos gonna listen
talk all u want
complain all that u want..

ps: if i ever see you... im gonna make sure u get hurt physically cos u hurt her emotionally...
fuck you... i still hate u for ratting me out... i was caned because of u remember???
u can hide behind ur big fat brother for all u want... just make sure i dont see ur face anymore

Done! I CAN FINALLY GET SOME SLEEP

let me love u lar...

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

hah im updating... becos!!!.. im not going for CAD studio tmr morning... im tired! kay bad excuse.
but im gonna go for GEMS tmr... why must school starts early in the morn... why cant it start at 3.. haha

no matter wat i do.. all i think about is you....

but i dnt think im gonna do anything...
u wanna know why?!?!
compare to both ur ex-es
im twice worst as much as both of them add together... haha
im not bragging... im just regretting the thing ive done... like seriously
fuck the past... haha
the past is haunting me again.... seriously...
AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
GO OR NOT!!!!!!

haiya...

first week of school its bad... sumtin happened to one of my family members...
skipped 4 lessons.. not 4 days arh...
every day im so tired... no time to play football... not in the mood to do assignments
even going online and doing noting
this sucks truly man.
today is friday right... im supposed to be in school for Oral communications and building tech practical at 8 but i woke up at 10
thats because i slept at 3
thats because i played rockband unplugged till 3
thats because i have no other time to play games
thats because travelling back to school is long
thats because there are so much inconsiderate singaporeans
thats because the rules suck
thats because... cant say anymore else ill be fined for this post haha
im so freaking sleepy right now
n hungry
and thirsty

if anyone is reading this i would apologize as this is a dreadful post
cos ive been dreadful this past few days
my minds had been so slow...
u wanna know why?
i dont know why u think abt it alrite?
den tell me
den tell the world

the passion and the flames is ignited
u cant put it out once we light it
this is exactly wat the fuck that im talking abt wen we riot

past...

wow... different person now...
i am so sori
i used to say she took drugs because of her black eyes
she was small and timid...
but look at her now...
gosh
seem like she went through extreme makeover and im the one whos regretting wateva i said about her
damn...looks like people can change
hopefully.. im going through extreme makoveer too u know!!!
aint that skinny useless dude anymore!!!

to fiq... aku mls la nk update

im so lazy to update my blog laaa.... everyday is a busy day.... busy sleeping... busy playing soccer... busy gaming....

so everyday is almost the same...
done a lot of fishing too... very disappointing...
now my whole arm is damn tanned
and its freaking itchy
itchy itchy itchy
scratching scratching scratching
even now im im typing with one hand
the other hand is scratching my shoulders
and to fiq
mane aku nyer white malay???
sial!

Fun Fishing morning

ok so syafiq vegas me and uncle jonnie went to bedok jetty to fish
reached thr about 2++..
it was raining but uncle jonnie kept us warm.... such a nice person...
when the rain stop syafiq had a problem and need to go home...
so it was left with me vegas n uncle jonnie...
the winds on the jetty was so cold but still uncle jonnie kept us warm....
we werent bored because of uncle jonnie...
thanks uncle jonnie for being there...
wat would we have done if uncle jonnie wasnt there
we almost caught 2 big fish but as we were pulling the fish up the jetty it released itself and gt back into the sea...
such a waste...
but we caught a dozen of small fishes
syafiq promised to come back at 7 am but he slept like a log at home
we didnt know how to return back to wdlds...
we just walked to the nearest bustop and figure out which is the best way to return
reached home den slept like a log till 10 pm
went out to chill and here i am updating my blog....
uncle jonnie is half dead and will be dead soon!

No time

i have no time to update my blog so this is gonna be short and sweet...
love working at furama riverfront
2nd day suck actualli

any of my chinese frens out there... pls remember to invite me to ur wedding dinner
i wanna give the longest yam seng wen i drunk.... haaaaaaaaaa



-gonna get bloated stomach soon

Enough is enough!

At first we thought u were great...
den slowly our thought changed...
however we still tried our best to put up with ur girlish behaviour...
we still tried our best to maintain this so call friendship....
we tried our best to keep to ourselves what we want to say that could hurt ur feelings..
but enough is enough.... making another friend angry is the same as making me angry...
u wont like it wen im angry
remember that day we broke fast together
i am not regrettin wat i said and i wish i have done more....
if talking to u wont change u... maybe my fist will...
we may not be friends anymore and i dont care...
i have more friends than you since u are stuck in ur perfect lil world
u thinku sooo mature... wow ure 18 ur 5 months older than me but do u realise ure still in the 1st year of polytechnic...
do u think u have gained more experience during that extra 5 months...
haaaaaaaaaaaaaa
if u know who u are and u are saying wat a loser i am
go look in the mirror and u will find a loser....
a guy/gurl who is so proud of yourself
can make fun of others but wen others make fun of u u show that shit face of yours...
and guess wat????
i found another sya already arh bitch

sucks hating injury

ok lets wrap up wat has happen this week so far...
monday...
went to Np to play futsal.. got injured on my left ankle.. very bad injury...
tuesday...
went to sakura to break fast with the riverside guys... something bad happen and im not regreting it...
wednesday...
fusion training at mandai tekong park.... wow finally at mandai tekong park seh
thursday...
played street soccer at mandai tekong park... kene bedal at point blank shot... save the ball but right pinky now swollen...
almost the same size as my thumb sia!!!
friday...
pinky swollen yet still went to mandai tekong park to play street soccer... left ankle kene bedal injured lagi... saket beb...

so im thinking whether to go to fusion training tmr... running hurts so wats the use right... but i wanna play... i wanna play...
i wanna get selected to play for island wide... but how to play when im injured... any one can spare me money to go x-ray on my left ankle??? haaaaaaa
k kidding but i really wanna have my left ankle x-rayed hopefully by this month... and hopefully no operation is needed...
ankle please get well soon ( i have been saying this for the past 2 years...)
haaa still could not forget the incident two years ago...
kene slide sampai menangis siol!!!
haha pray for my healh guys!!!

AyeDeaL ape nie...

Yesterday went to Sweet Escape party... kinda boring actually... like a gay club already ... 90% guys 10% ladies... and most ladies came with their BALAK and therefore it suck...

If u wanna go clubbing or party... NVR i repeat NVR bring along ur AWEK or BALAK pls!
its like stupid sia... come to enjoy but end up trying to get other guys to stop staring at her... seriously dont be dumb sia...

after the party reached home at about 7 and guess waat did i do???

i changed into my soccer kit and went for soccer training...
tot that training was gonna be tired cos havent slept but it turned out great...
MAN OF THE MATCH U KNOW
last week score this week man of the match.. who knows wats gonna happen next week...
gonna work twice as hard... need to train shooting and crossing...
highlight of the training...
going for the first ball... den i realise that its too high den i turned around and did a BICYLE KICK!!!
crazy sia 1st ball do bicycle kick
giler babi betol arh...

den we had our BBQ at nite... a get together event utk mengeratkan silaturahim antara budak tekongs and budak sengkang but i dont think that anything was achieved
as usual the tekong boys would sit and chat with the tekong boys and the sengkang boys would sit and chat with the sengkang boys... buang mase kan....
NVM lar... a last event for Mr Weijun as he is going off to serve Singapore on Tuesday... NS lar doh!

but before that i meet someone...
someone from my primary school whom i used to have a crush on...
hahahahaha kekek siol... shes soooo smart, hardworking and well manered... and im soooooo lazy, rough arh u know all the shit rite... wanted to ask for her number but was already late for the BBQ so i just smile and rush off to the bustop...( kiwak step lambat jer padehal segan!!! shh jgn blang org tau)

pompan mcm tu kao nak?! muke da mcm tayar sotong!! da gi buat kerja aku tau arini jugak siap

hah i thought of that scene wen i saw her...

skali lagi aku nampak muke ko lu mati!!! lu mati!!!

hah crite da sangkot dlm kepale otak sak
anyone wanna go to Geylang tomorow?!

SWEET ESCAPE PARTY!!!

who wanna tag alongg??? free for the ladies 8 bucks for the guys..
i know its the month of ramadan but sometimes y gotta enjoy urself especially after the exams...
so if u wanna tag along send me a msg or just gimme a shoutout okay!
pls do come if u can!

Lucky Man U

Arsenal lost although they were the better team. Fabulous goal by Arshavin.
The penalty was not a penalty. And Diaby's own goal was purely dumb shit...
And Arsene Wenger became crazy... da kene send off tu kluar jelah dari stadium
na step pandai lakk...

ok today's football training was bad... yes totalli bad
i didnt even get a shot on target...stupid AyeDeaL
but the 11 a side was better...
played my usual defensive midfield.. made some great but crazy stops and even scoring a goal... naseb larrrrrrrr
deflection haha...janji goal...
i want to get selected lar please... need to train shooting and crossing... AND STAMINA
nvm... will train harder than usual

now i want to play psp...
ok babies chao!
support young guns okay!